Today we have reached the 2nd year since we lost you Francis. The pain is still here and my heart aches when I think of you and the should of beens and the what ifs. The saddness has weighed heavy this week, everything comes back like it was yesterday and the pain becomes so fresh to the surface again. We are so grateful that we have been blessed with your new sister Samantha, she looks so much like you especially when she sleeps it catches me off guard. At first I was shocked by it and wasn’t expecting her to look like you, but now I treasure those moments I see you in her and I smile and take it as a gift from you. I know that I haven’t written and I have had moments where I have wanted and needed to like when out of nowhere I can smell you, like the time you placed a rainbow near our house the day we brought Samantha home and the magnificent rainbow that spread wide through out the sky and followed me home. Alex and Gavin were so excited seeing it and we captured a picture of Alex under it. Alex also draws pictures almost daily of rainbows. Even though you are not with us physically, you are just as much a part of our lives as we are here remembering and loving you. I miss you….Love Mommy
Francis, with all my heart I wish you were here with us today. Whatever the reasons were why you could not spend your time here on earth with us I know that one day we will all be together. I am forever grateful that I have your beautiful sisters and brother to share my love with.
I will always love you.
Grandma
Beautiful words Carrie. Francis was a special gift and he has touched so many lives- in so many ways. Thank you for sharing his beauty with so many.
Carrie, he is with you always for sure. Surely, he is your special guardian angel in heaven. You won’t know exactly what he is doing, but rest assured he will be keeping you safe.
My father died when I was 15, and I can’t tell you how many times I thought that I did have my own guardian angel–like when we had a big car accident on the highway, yet no one got hurt, ER trips that seemed serious, yet everything ended up o.k. If you haven’t already, you will start noticing things like that.
Beautiful!